People in court

Yesterday, I made another appearance. My boss called me early in the morning asking if I can make it to court in less than two hours. I told him I can appear so I just had a small bowl of Frosted Flakes before changing and heading to work. My time in court went longer than expected. The judge arrived in her bench half an hour late. There was a somewhat erratic defendant in the courtroom. A man approximately 6 feet tall with a very hefty build in his late 20s or early 30s,  approached the bailiff and was asking about his case. When the bailiff told him he would need to sit back down and wait, the man raised his voice and said something to the extent, "Who the hell are you?!" The man was accompanied by his father who was trying to calm him down. The defendant eventually went outside  where he was met with additional officers. The father explained to the bailiff, who was still inside the courtroom, that he didn't take his medicine today. Apparently, he was there for his arraignment. When his name was called, he was surrounded by the officers just in case there would be a fiasco. The judge talked about his case and eventually he was ordered to come back on another date. He left the courthouse but the officers didn't escort him.

Regret

"We regret to inform you that you were not selected to move forward in our hiring process..We wish to thank you for your interest in [our office] and for the opportunity to discuss the position with you. Our human resources department will keep your file for one year after the original filing date. You may update your file anytime through [our website.]

Please accept our best wishes for success in your employment goals.

Sincerely,
[The same office who worked your ass off  during your first year in law school only to say better luck never. Obviously, it's not even who you know, what you know, or what you did for us that can help land a job. Therefore, you'll be even more at a loss for what employers want.] "

At least they didn't use the word "endeavour." My sadness and disappointment wasn't that deep when I got the official word. After so many rejections, I've become somewhat desensitized to failure. However I'm still human. I cut. I bleed. I feel. I am. I had a feeling from my last post that I wasn't going to get it.   I sat in my car for about half an hour, just staring into the steering wheel, wondering where I'll be going from here on out.

A month has gone by..

since my last post. I've been meaning to write more but I figured people would be bored at this point  reading the same thing. (Appearances here and there; still looking for a full-time gig.) I know I would.

I did land two interviews with one of them being from that government office where I used to work. The interview was more of the same but I emphasized how I enjoyed my experience working for that office and was name-dropping a few colleagues hoping they will ask them and get a response something to the effect, "Oh yeah, I remember JDA. He's a great worker. Hire him!" For the first time in an interview, I was asked if I had been receiving any CLEs. I told them I haven't been taking any CLE courses but I've attempted to keep current via daily briefs emailed and other internet sources.. I wanted to say, "Look, the CLEs you're talking about cost money and that's money I don't have right now."  I called the office this morning just to check  my status. The guy told me they'd be emailing notices today for the people who made the first cut. He couldn't find my file immediately but I told him it's alright. I was opening my email account hourly hoping to see that yellow marker you get in your gmail account. You know the one that's labeled "important." It's 10:00 pm and I haven't received anything. Either state employees are working long into the night or I didn't make the cut. Now, I'm only waiting to receive the official news and seeing that word 'endevour' again.

I was also asked a similar question during the other interview. It was for a private personal injury firm.  They wanted to know what was I doing from the time I was licensed as an attorney to the time I've been making appearances. I told them bluntly I was looking for work. They didn't seem shocked by my answer as they received many applications from attorneys who have been barred for a couple years and still haven't landed a job. They informed me I should be hearing their response within a couple weeks, however I already know I'll see 'endevour' or some synonym too.