A little update..

I talked to my boss yesterday about how I felt regarding my last appearance. I told him it was very hectic and more frustrating than it should have been. If something similar might happen in the future, he would need to be there instead of me.  He said he understood and told me the same thing from last time. However, I was a little disappointed there was no apology. Maybe I wasn't clear enough about what I went through that day. One of those times when you feel like you can't win.

I'm mad at my boss.

I made another appearance in court last Friday and without divulging too much information that risks revealing the identity of the parties involved,the best or least worst thing which resulted from trying to fix all the mess was that the client didn't have to go to jail.  I'm saving all correspondence between my boss and me regarding this client. There's a chance I might have to cover my back just in case the ethics committee asks me about a malpractice claim. If there is a claim, it'll be focused on my supervisor, not me. I just don't want any blame headed my way.  I'm not sure if it's enough to be considered malpractice but I'm certain it's enough for the matter to be investigated. If I was the client, I'd be pissed and rightfully so. She was actually confused about what was going on and so was I during the proceedings. It was a huge blunder.  What was supposed to be no more than a 15 minute appearance in court ended up dragging out for 3 frustrating hours talking to the client, my boss, the city attorney, and the judge.   After it was over, I felt spent and sad for her. I wanted to yell at my boss, "What the fuck happened!? You know what just happened to her?! Why the fuck did you put me in this shit?! This is all your fucking fault!" It wouldn't have taken much to prevent this mishap from occurring, simple book-keeping really. Of course, he had his explanations but similar events  have taken place in the past. Granted, they weren't as extreme as what transpired Friday but the frequency of these events  just makes me question if he's really aware of his clients' dispositions. Sometimes, I feel like he's  not taking his clients' cases seriously. I want to tell him you either have to do these things yourself or you need to be absolutely certain about the case's status when assigning me the job. Although I do get paid, I don't want to gain money at the expense of the client's welfare, especially not what happened last week. It's not worth it. If going back in time and not experiencing what happened only took a matter of paying back what I'm owed, I'll gladly oblige. I'm going to talk to him hopefully in a couple days and I got to let my grievances out.

I want to leave this job but nothing is out there.

There's that 'e' word again.

Another Private Employer

A Law Corporation

April 10, 2012

John Doe Attorney

123 Anywhere Street

Somewhere, CA

Re: Associate Position

Dear Mr. Doe:

Thank you for your interest in our firm. Although your experience is impressive, they do not match our office's current needs.

Once again, we thank you for your interest and we wish you the very best to you in future endeavors.

Sincerely,

Another Private Employer

A Law Corporation

[Signed-Random Partner]

Random Partner

When Letting You Know Within Two Weeks Means Not Letting You Know Within Two Weeks

It's been more than two weeks since I last interviewed with the general practice and personal injury firms. As expected, I haven't heard a reply from either office although they did say they will inform me of a decision within that time frame. I know the general practice firm already hired another associate. I visited their website and noticed another attorney's information has been added to the list of employees. My first thought was, " I hope you guys don't treat your clients with the same discourtesy as you do with potential employees." (This website is also from the same law firm where I dreamed I was working for them as described in my previous post.) Part of me feels like contacting both offices via phone or email but really I know it'll be futile. I'll just be given the same run around I've always been receiving and I'm just tired right now. Oh yeah, Happy Easter everyone.

I Dream In Color

Last night, I had a dream that I got a job with the law firm where I was interviewed last week. The office was a medium size general practice firm who, just like everybody else, informed me they would let me know of a decision within two weeks. First thing I remember in my dream is showing up to the office and talking to the other associates. I don't know why I was there but the associates were talking to me as if I'm also their co-worker. I told them I'm not sure if I should even be here because I don't think I made the cut. One of them said we can always check the wall. Apparently, a framed group picture shows all the employees. I was certain I wasn't going to be in the picture because I was never photographed. Everyone was wearing casual clothes and it appeared to have been taken at a park.  After looking closely, I saw myself in the far background wearing an over-sized white shirt and a pair of jeans. I was surprised to see myself but later felt elated and excited. The feeling was similar to seeing my name in the pass list of the bar exam website. I was just able to breathe easier. After believing I worked there, we checked to see the note our managing partner gave us. The note read something to the effect of  "You guys all did a great job! Take today to socialize among yourselves!" We were all ecstatic. I was conversing with the staff and talking about how I'm just glad to be here and how tough it was looking for work. Next thing I remember is we were heading to the airport for a nice getaway. When I was boarding the plane, I finally woke up. Reality set back in quickly and it felt like everything was taken away from me. I wanted to close my eyes, hoping I can get back on that plane but I stayed awake. I knew it wouldn't change anything.